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Where have I been?

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I only rediscovered my old blog earlier today, after a gap of at least a year! What subtle message is that giving out?

There is a reason though, and it’s mostly down to the major problem of the internet. There is too much choice and its too easy to start something, with no penalty to not carry on. The huge internet choice has also given us the exceptionally poor quality that publishers and editors never let near a printing press!

Just because you can, doesn’t mean you should!

What I noticed is that everyone is trying to get eyeballs, and so, posts anything to make sure someone clicks on those lovely adverts, which pays for everything. Its no way to run a website!

I have taken the other approach of posting stuff, nobody wants to read, and not placed any adverts to make sure they don’t feel obliged to click on anything else. I also find that I loose interest in seeing so many people not able to think through an idea. You start ranting, but sometimes, people just don’t want to hear it.

Anyway, I will post more often now, but only when I get a good idea that needs expressing!

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December 12, 2012 at 5:05 pm

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Do you look forward or backward at life?

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Realised something interesting the other day.  People who feel down more often than up tend to look at the future with dread.  Is this you?

If something new is about to happen – do you grab it with hope of a great time, or do you think something is going to go wrong?

When something bad has happened, do you put a line under it and look at the future, or do you just spend your time rewriting the past to make things better?

You decide which works for you!

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October 15, 2010 at 10:10 pm

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The stress of being levelheaded

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I would consider myself quite a sensible chap.  I don’t do drama over a crisis.  When something goes wrong, it’s not the end of the world, just an extra pain I didn’t need.  So what happens when you seem to get one stress after another coming at you like level 5 of Space Invaders?

I am not one to pass judgement on other people’s thought process.  We tend to develop a way of thinking that we get used to.  What this means in practice is that when others get into a panic, I will tend to defuse the situation by bringing issues back to earth.

Its quite easy really, being level headed.

All you need to do is know two things.  One, you are insignificant, in the grand scheme of things.  You are on this planet for 80 years or so, and then you are dead.  There are another 6 billion people on this planet, and each one of them also has issues – most of which are also insignificant.  Geologically speaking, nobody would notice that 80 years if it was missing!

Secondly, most peoples problems are worries about things that have happened, or things that might happen. Things that have happened, can’t be changed, so just get used to it.  Things that have yet to happen – have not happened, so why worry?

The hypothetical future is never as bad as you might imagine.  It is the result of their imaginations view of how bad things might be that people worry about.

The problem for us level headed people is that everybody expects us to solve their problems.  Yes, it can be fun sorting problems on an irregular basis, but after a while, it gets monotonous hearing the same old misery.  You end up boring yourself with the same old solutions for the problems people keep getting themselves into. It is even more frustrating to see your solutions being badly implemented and then obviously not working as expected!

The worst part of being level heaved is that you end up being the one with no one to bounce ideas off – because everyone expects you to be the level headed one, who doesn’t need help and support.

It can get quite lonely being the one with all the answers, even when you haven’t.  It can get even worse when you do start feeling down, tired and just disinterested.

So many people aim far too high and don’t put the effort in to get there. They then get disappointed when it doesn’t happen!

I’ve had a go at the rat race, and I’m still paying off that lifestyle.  All we really need for a good life is a little happiness and a whole load of contentment – is that aiming too low?

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September 27, 2010 at 8:38 pm

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Death – what will you die of?

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I’ve been discussing the dangers to kids with friends recently, and there seems to be a range of commonalities that kills people as they get older.

Cars kill teens.

Then in their 20s its accidents due to drink and drugs.

By their 30’s its mostly depression (suicides etc)

Later in life it becomes the medical effect of Drink and drugs.

Eventually, if non of that gets you, its bad genes and you die of cancer.

If you miss all that, then you just die of old age – hopefully before you loose your marbles!

Ever wondered how long you have on this planet?  I would love to see 2060.  If my genes are as good as I think they are, I might just make it!

Life is so dangerous – you are very lucky to get out alive! 🙂

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September 12, 2010 at 6:32 pm

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What makes us human?

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The last few weeks has been difficult for a number of friends.  They have issues and need a voice of reason to try and make sense of their lives.

The problem seems to be based on expectation and what the world expects of us.

We are told by everyone else what a perfect life looks like, and what we need to do to achieve it.  The irony is that nobody – especially those who promote this life, actually live like that! We don’t live with model partners – and neither do they!

We are all flawed, and its that element of flaw that gives us personality.  Noticed how the more perfect someone is, the more dull and boring they are?  We all have something that we do that annoys the daylights out of others.

It was once said that it took an uncompromising person to change the world.  Well, maybe they did, but they wouldn’t have had much of a personal life!

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September 12, 2010 at 3:04 pm

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Motorcycle Racer is Killed while Racing

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This week has seen 4 deaths in competitive racing.

Shoya Tomizawa, Jamie Adam ,Chris Bradshaw & Peter Lenz all died in races between the 29th of August and the 5th of September 2010.

While the world will remember their names for a short time, and wonder at their decision to race, the drive to take risks is natural.

When Dave Jeffries, the Manx TT racer, was killed in 2003, the following poem was read out at his funeral. It explains why.

ONLY A PERSON WHO RISKS IS FREE
by Author Unknown

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach for another is to risk involvement.
To expose your ideas, your dreams,
before a crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To believe is to risk despair.
To try is to risk failure.
But risks must be taken, because the
greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The people who risk nothing, do nothing,
have nothing, are nothing.
They may avoid suffering and sorrow,
but they cannot learn, feel, change,
grow, love, live.
Chained by their attitudes they are slaves;
they have forfeited their freedom.
Only a person who risks is free.

Great words to live by?

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September 5, 2010 at 5:46 pm

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Old Age – a worry or somthing to look forward to?

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I was talked into watching Benjamin Button on DVD.  Its a story of a man who lives his life backwards.  He is born as a very old baby, and gets younger through his life.  Of course, everyone else lives a normal life, and its about his relationships and their reaction to him.

While it is a nice film, and the idea is very interesting, it wasn’t the best film I’ve ever seen.  It reminded me of Big Fish, which I think did the story of life much better!

Anyway, there was a very interesting idea in this film which I think I might take up.  The main character, Benjamin, writes a biography to remind him of his life should he become to old, and lose his memory.

My grandmother lost her memory when she got older, and suffered from Alzheimers and its possibly my greatest fear that I might get it in my old age. With that in mind (yes, its an awful pun!) I think it might be useful to write myself a few notes to remind myself of my life.  Not sure how I will do it, and it isn’t going to be interesting for anyone else.  My ego doesn’t allow me to use this site to write it on – but it will be stored online.

When you think about it, we do a huge amount of things in one life – even if it isn’t interesting, its worth remembering – at least until I die of a dissolved brain!

Of course, if I end up stopping breathing due to mistiming a corner – it will be a bit of a waste of effort!! 🙂

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August 28, 2010 at 11:05 pm

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